Today has been a long time coming! I was finally able to take a pregnancy test this morning and I had my first blood test at the clinic today. I did take a home pregnancy test a few days ago but knew it was probably too soon for anything to show up, even if I was pregnant. But you can't blame a girl for trying.
Well I wanted to take home test this morning because if it was bad news I wanted time to process everything before the nurse at the clinic called with the bad news.
I took it as soon as I woke up and......pregnant! WHAT?! It's a little surreal. At first, it definitely looked negative and I just put it down and went about getting ready. I mean, I'm used to seeing negative tests and nothing ever changes with time. Well now I know why they tell you to wait a few minutes before looking at the test because when I looked 2 minutes later, a faint little line had appeared! I did not know what to think. I wasn't sure if I wanted to wake Nate up to tell him or not. I decided not to because I wanted to wait for the bloodwork to confirm anything AND I wanted to be able to surprise him somehow. It's so hard with all this stuff because there really are no surprises...he knew as well as I did that I was testing that day. But I was going to try a surprise anyway!
I had to run to the office first before going to get bloodwork done but that was around 8:00 and then back to work to await the results. The call came a little before 1:00. It was my nurse, Julie, and she said "congratulations!" and then it all started to get real.
I'm really pregnant. All of this worked. I'm going to be a mom. These stupid, painful shots weren't for nothing. I took five minutes to just go sit in the bathroom at work and have a little happy/ overwhelmed cry.
I didn't get to surprise Nate how I wanted but that's okay. Maybe someday I'll be able to. I feel happy but also not too happy, because I won't let myself get there yet. There's still a long way to go. This was just the first test of many but still so exciting to finally have a positive pregnancy test. Here's to the future!
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