A Heartbeat Away

I think this two week wait was so much worse than the actual "two week wait" everyone talks about between transfer and first blood test.  I mean, you go from having blood tests every other day to them telling you to just hang out for 2.5 weeks for an ultrasound appointment.  I was so tempted (multiple times) to call and ask for another blood test partway through, just to be sure everything was still okay.

We had such a cute nurse this visit.  She pulled us back and asked me how I was feeling.  I told her "terrified" and she just gave me a big hug and told us how exciting everything was.  It was so nice to have her be so warm and excited for us because a lot of people at the clinic are more business like and don't like to get involved, understandably.

Our doctor was the one who came in to do the ultrasound.  As soon as she got a picture I knew everything looked good (well, it all looked good according to my limited knowledge of ultrasounds hahaha).  She was able to find the heartbeat super quick and it's crazy how you can see it pulsing on the ultrasound, even when the baby is only as big as a blueberry!

I am 7 weeks, 3 days which was further than I expected.  I looked it up online a week or so ago to figure out how far I was because I wasn't sure how to calculate it factoring in IVF.  That means my due date is July 14th!

I honestly just felt overwhelmed after the appointment.  It's hard to feel happy when you're so scared something is going to go wrong.  And how are you supposed to feel when everything you've ever wanted is finally happening?!  I'm not a very emotional person and I think I usually just get quiet when big things happen, so they probably all thought I was angry or something...I don't really know.  I just really didn't know what to say or how to feel or what to do.  It's so overwhelming.

A few days later and I think I'm feeling better about everything.  At least, I don't feel so overwhelmed now.  I'm sure that will come and go through the whole pregnancy though.

This one shows the baby's heartbeat.

This one shows the baby is 12.16mm long and is measuring 7 weeks 3 days (right on schedule!)

Eating at Shake Shack after the ultrasound.  We had a bit of time to kill before I dropped Nate off at the airport for a quick business trip.  Another reason I'm glad the appointment went well because if not, I was spending the night all alone.

Transfer Day! Take 2...

The time has come again to transfer another one of our little embabies!  I feel like it has taken forever to get back to this point, but here we are.

Again, I kind of feel like it's just another day.  I don't feel especially nervous, but I guess I already know what's going to happen so there's really no need for nerves.  I worked a shift at Starbucks this morning, how fitting.  It's like I wanted to tell everyone that in a few hours I was going to get impregnated and how cool is that?!  But then I also wasn't going to tell anyone, especially work, quite yet.  It's weird to have such exciting news that you can't really tell people about.

I may have filled my bladder a little too full, too early, so I had to go to the bathroom when we got there.  It's not easy to only empty your bladder partially, but I did it!  And then I kept on chugging more.

We only transferred one embryo again.  If this one doesn't work I'm pretty set on transferring two the next time, but we will keep our fingers crossed.

This time I felt everything went a lot smoother.  The first time they had a hard time seeing everything and honestly, I think the ultrasound tech was new because she had such a difficult time and the girl this time found what she needed right away!  Everything went much quicker and it was less uncomfortable.

After the procedure, we went home and I took a nice long nap, like I love.  I'll take any excuse to nap that I can get!

OMG He's So Cute

So far I haven't posted too many personal things on here (like life outside IVF!) so I just wanted to take a minute and say how cute my husband is!

This whole process has been hard for him because he sometimes feels like it's more "my thing" than "our thing" since it's basically me going to the doctor all the time, and giving shots, and having procedures.  It's not really 50/50 like traditional baby making.  Because of this, it's been harder for him to get excited about everything going on.

But today I got this text from him...

I mean is this not the best ever?!  It made my heart so happy.  Nate researches everything before buying it.  No matter how big or small.  Usually it's tech stuff.  He looooves new tech.  So when he tells me he's spent so much time looking at baby stuff, I really can't describe how happy it made me!

It wasn't just baby clothes, but baby swings, car seats, strollers, monitors, cribs, and more!

Also, no, we did not buy $400 worth of baby clothes for a baby we don't know if we're having yet ;)