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A Heartbeat Away

I think this two week wait was so much worse than the actual "two week wait" everyone talks about between transfer and first blood test.  I mean, you go from having blood tests every other day to them telling you to just hang out for 2.5 weeks for an ultrasound appointment.  I was so tempted (multiple times) to call and ask for another blood test partway through, just to be sure everything was still okay.

We had such a cute nurse this visit.  She pulled us back and asked me how I was feeling.  I told her "terrified" and she just gave me a big hug and told us how exciting everything was.  It was so nice to have her be so warm and excited for us because a lot of people at the clinic are more business like and don't like to get involved, understandably.

Our doctor was the one who came in to do the ultrasound.  As soon as she got a picture I knew everything looked good (well, it all looked good according to my limited knowledge of ultrasounds hahaha).  She was able to find the heartbeat super quick and it's crazy how you can see it pulsing on the ultrasound, even when the baby is only as big as a blueberry!

I am 7 weeks, 3 days which was further than I expected.  I looked it up online a week or so ago to figure out how far I was because I wasn't sure how to calculate it factoring in IVF.  That means my due date is July 14th!

I honestly just felt overwhelmed after the appointment.  It's hard to feel happy when you're so scared something is going to go wrong.  And how are you supposed to feel when everything you've ever wanted is finally happening?!  I'm not a very emotional person and I think I usually just get quiet when big things happen, so they probably all thought I was angry or something...I don't really know.  I just really didn't know what to say or how to feel or what to do.  It's so overwhelming.

A few days later and I think I'm feeling better about everything.  At least, I don't feel so overwhelmed now.  I'm sure that will come and go through the whole pregnancy though.


This one shows the baby's heartbeat.

This one shows the baby is 12.16mm long and is measuring 7 weeks 3 days (right on schedule!)
Eating at Shake Shack after the ultrasound.  We had a bit of time to kill before I dropped Nate off at the airport for a quick business trip.  Another reason I'm glad the appointment went well because if not, I was spending the night all alone.

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